Friday, July 11, 2003

Long time no see. Looks like you missed me, which is understandable due to my sunny disposition. The new job is beneath me, but to be fair most positions would fall into that category. I am still bitter about the 17 year olds making as much as me, and having more growth potential, but life is unfair/fuckingretarded sometimes.

Honestly, work could be significantly worse. On the one hand the company is not taking advantage of my potential, on the other hand they are paying me more then McDonalds (though not much more). Got to look for the silver lining in every cloud even if it is an acid rain causing one. The worst part has been the constant barrage of stupid questions and asinine videos. Treating me like an intellectual toddler does tend to irritate/pissmethefuckoff. Of course my parents have been very helpful. My mom keeps calling me a pussy for complaining, while dad gets angry about giving me money to pay bills. I understand my mom's position, she is a crazy bitch. But, dad getting pissed about spotting me for a couple weeks is nearly unforgivable. In order to take this job, I had to pretty much quit helping him. Since he pushed me to become gainfully employed, I assumed the "me" not working for him was understood. Also, as I told him early last week the Human Resource Department, i.e. spawn of hell, would not have me entered in payroll in time to get a check by the next payment cycle. So, instead of being paid on the 16th (which’s 18 days from my start date) I have to wait until the end of the 31st for my first check. Problem is I have bills to pay before then. Dad didn't seem to care. He keeps demanding I work for him, but the aforementioned job/finaldeathblowtothesoul prevents that from happening. Basically all this means I have no money to pay bills or even go to work. After literally begging for several hours I did manage to score enough cash to pay for gas over the next week, though eating would not be a viable option.

Now, some of you might counter that I should have been prepared (I didn't want the job, was threatened with bodily harm if I didn't take it) or at the very least resort to credit cards to get me by. Well, thankfully several months ago I tore up all my cards, save for one which I let DAD FUCKING USE for his auction. Recently I took that card back, unbeknownst to him, and did use it to buy toilet paper today (I have literally showered after every shit since last week due to my inability to afford toilet paper). Basically, I am not terribly pleased with the parental units at the moment and rightfully so. Also, I learned my brother-in-law/sister told my dad they could get me a good job but think I am way too unreliable. This is probably true, but at my age both of them were far from wise, respectable, and reliable workers themselves, based on their own personal anecdotes. As usual they are trying to keep the white man down so I will have to deal with and stop being a pussy. God I love my mom.


Well I am off to use the credit card to buy a pizza and then take a nice long pooh. God, I love toilet paper even more then my mom.

go to hell